I apologize for never updating. To be completely honest (and I will try to post something about it later), I have a huge list of things to write about but I just never had the heart to write about it. A lot of things can change over the course of a few months, and many of my former convictions and opinions of what I want to do with my life professionally have been crashing around me like a particularly rough break in the tide.
Anyways, like I said, I’ll talk all about that later. In other news, I found a very interesting article that I think is a wonderful read regarding one woman’s journey through… well, quitting her job at Google. I actually really enjoyed it and think it’d be worth it for anyone who has any sort of doubts in his or her mind about what to do in the “real world” to read.
I really enjoyed this article because this is where I am right now in my life. It may sound bad, but one of the biggest motivations in my life is how other people perceive me. It doesn’t mean that I’m particularly vain or that I need a lot of attention. It just means that for myself to feel really successful in certain areas of my life, it helps that other people see me as successful as well. Unfortunately, and the author also points it out, that doesn’t really lead you to a fulfilling life. In fact, when you’re in a very bad spot or you have a growing sense of “something is not quite right, but I don’t know what it is”, that sort of worrying or motivation isn’t helpful at all.
Many times in the past few months, people close to me have asked me why I want to change career paths. They ask me what’s wrong with the current job that I have (which isn’t bad by any means) and that if it’s not the money or the normal amount of working hours, then why would I want to do something different?
Suffice to say, that just adds on a whole other layer of uncertainty of if this is the right thing for me to do. However, and the author of this article can also attest to it, am I really ok when I am constantly thinking about what else is out there? If I’m always wondering if I’m on the straight and narrow, the right path for the rest of my life?
It takes painful honesty to stand up and say no, no I am not.
And I’m not content to sit around with that realization and do nothing about it. And I hope that for others out there like me, they’ll eventually have that same moment of clarity and do something about it too.